My First Music Video and Initial Hatred of Art

Sorry, I removed the lyrics do to the graphical glitches they caused in the blog. look them up if you would like.

            This was the song that went with the first music video I ever watched, "I'm Still Here" by John Rzeznik. I don't Have much to say the lyrics speak for themselves. To this day I have never been so in sink with a song, in every way. The lyrics fit, the tempo and pace accentuates the lyrics, and the video adds the artistic side often represented in me. In a way this, song is me. Which sounds corny, plus I hate to admit that in part because it was featured in a Disney film, Treasure Planet (Side note: which is the best animated mainstream disney animated film by far). But as much as I try I can't escape it's lyrics and overall tone, I always find my way back to this song in times of struggle. I feel it just vocalizes how I feel, about people and my voice as an artist. As a child in elementary school I was encouraged not to explore my artistic skills. I was told I sucked by my teachers, therefore I just felt as if I had no artistic ability. I would create something and in fourth-seventh grade get docked points for expressing artistic liberties. Taking one project and making it my own. I had to drop my art class in seventh grade for a study hall, because I was getting a low grade. This led me to hate art in general. This of course changed when I moved to Oregon, and my artistry, which I was unaware of at that point, was fueled, by there simple words "Yes, you can."   

           The video depicts a man running away from the norm, going to where he feels free, no mater the dangers, or so he dreams. Sadly he realizes every time he tries he can't escape out of fear of never finding what he is looking for, to truly belong. Asking why should he have to change when its the others inability to change and be accepting that hurts him inside. I realized I had to face this fear head on in my last two years of high school. In order to build my own confidence as an artist, and break the uncertainty I had with my own ability, I had to go to the source and attend college in the midwest. I came here with the intention to kick arts ass and prove the midwest they were wrong about me. While that is no longer the main focus, I still get that feeling every once and a while. I love the person I am and that cannot be broken, but I have no ability to influence others in that way about themselves or others. 

             Well, sorry for the short depressive type blog. Don't worry I am not depressed either, just sometimes it feels good to get it all out, even without specifics or explanation. Here is a link to the video in case you were wanting to watch it...