How “Amadeus” Gave Me a Reality Check

Amadeus is an American drama film made in 1984. The story unfolds in Vienna, Austria amidst the 18^th century. It follows a dramatized version of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart’s life. The theme of the entire film is focused around an Italian contemporary of Mozart named Antonio Salieri. He is so envious of Mozart’s success that he plots to kill the beloved musician.

I won’t give away anymore spoilers. Instead, I’d like to share how this film opened my eyes to some of my flaws and inspired a heart-change within me.

I had not thought of myself as an individual who struggled with envy until I put my everyday actions under a microscope after watching “Amadeus”. I realized that my heart could be better breeding grounds for envy than I originally thought.

I have been told all throughout my life that I see the best in others, but I’ve recently discovered that attribute can sometimes create a spiritual environment that cultivates envy. Most of the time, my recognition of praiseworthy parts of others stops at appreciation, but occasionally, it turns into wishing I had that part of them.

A couple of months ago, one of my relationships came to an end and I struggled with missing my favorite parts of that person. Only recently has that struggle turned into full-fledged envy toward the people who get to see those parts on a daily basis when I cannot. After, viewing this film I decided to do something about it. I started praying that God would continually enhance the many edifying attributes my old friend already possesses even if I never have the chance to interact with them again. I feel as if “Amadeus” reminded me that admiring something for its beauty without needing to own it is enough.