the prayers from the Ark: the prayer of the Donkey and Me

        Personally, this pray when I read it remind me of a little of my life. when I read it I am visioning middle school and high school years and my depressing days there. for all of you thinking that this is an other sad ASS story, well your right.

I was diagnosed with Autism when I was 3 yr old and everything is different to me, because something  I wont understand. but it help me a bit as artist see differently than others. - this is the road I trudge along.


I carry a lot of emotional  loads and a lots of them turn into depression, if you see me all happy and stuff that is my Mask, or my anti-deprssion medication working. Don't get me wrong, I want to be friendly and have friends, it sometimes that I need a family or friend with me so I don't so on the deep end.- this is heavy loads I carry


I always in middle and high school got bullied and get into fights with my problems- to be beaten


 so now I am here in college,where there are so many friendly people that I can endured my past and start looking into a blight future.

The Prayer of the Donkey

O God, who made me

To trudge along the road

Always,

To carry heavy loads

Always,

And to be beaten

Always!

Give me great courage and gentleness.

One day let somebody understand me¾

That I may no longer want to weep

Because I can never say what I mean

And they make fun of me.

Let me find a juicy thistle¾

And make them give me time to pick it.

And, Lord, one day, let me find again

my little brother of the Christmas crib.

Amen

Prayers from the Ark

 by Carmen Bernos de Gasztold